sometimes it goes the other way too’
people say they are going to go dark and they don’t mean it
they say they are disconnecting, going off-grid but it is all just utter bullshit
and I am no different
I mean clearly look at me typing into a computer to write a post on my website to share on social media in the vain hope that someone might be in some way touched by it
Narcissist that I am
But I would love to be a painter
A sculptor
For then I would not touch high definition
As I would be touching on life
So, I would like to go off-grid
Buy some woodland
Live off the land
And be a good neighbour and caretaker to all the beings that live within it
Grow my own food
But only some of this will happen and not in the rose-tinted way I would like them to
And some things won’t happen at all
And I will have to be okay with that
Because one day we all go
You will go, I will go, everyone will go from this world into another
And we are so tied to this one that that process can be painful
And can break our heart
So let it
It’s meant to
Don’t be fooled by the Hollywood bullshit endings
There are no great speeches
There are no grand finales
And certainly, no encore for the likes of you and me
Not this time
so, living off the land sounds nice
and we should all give it a go
or at least die trying
but in harmony with it, not the other way
a million fucked up consciousness club together to buy a second-hand car
and then drove it through your mall
and the worst thing is you saw it coming, all along, and you were too paralyzed with fear about your own incompetence that it came true
well, that’s the way it goes junior
but remember what the film said
“c”
And then the line died,` and with it the party
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Written and read by Sam I am from SleeplessDystopian.com