Sergeant Steroids

NOTE: This episode's audio is less than desirable, but if you can make it through- I PROMISE Episode's 7 on are INCREDIBLE. I really taught myself all of the things. Please do not judge The Dichotomy Diaries based on this Episode's audio quality. Dear Diary & Listeners, When I tell you I have had the busiest three weeks of my life. I am nowhere close to joking.  You know, sitting back right now with my feet up on my desk and my hair up in a bun- I feel pretty damn accomplished.  I did some shit I didn't even think I was capable of... I just recorded, edited, and fully produced an entire podcast episode BY MY SELF! I put myself out there to create new relationships with actual human people. I gritted my teeth through the discomfort of social anxiety and what I uncovered on the other side is so fucking special.  (Not me basking in the new incredible friendships I have created) Now you're probably like "Wait, Amanda...You're so extroverted. How could you possibly have social anxiety...?" Let me let you in on a little secret.  When you are alienated from everyone you love and continue to self isolate through healing- you straight up lose those skills.  I'm also just going to be blatantly honest... The trauma I endured while with Dick, made me develop an anxious speech pattern where I LONG PAUSE almost every time I speak, when asked a question. I also swear to (Non-Mormon) God, that I developed a stutter.  This is what happens when you are so afraid of constantly saying the wrong thing. Walking on eggshells virtually every second of your life, does crazy shit to your brain. And when you have an immensely unique and complex brain, you need to socialize. Otherwise, you end up in a prison of your own thoughts. It wasn't very fun, but thankfully as you can hear- no more stutter and shorter pauses. WIN. During this episode we dive DEEP into the World of Financial Domination. You will meet Jamie, a client of 9 years and begin to understand the "why" behind this secret fetish lifestyle that so many live behind closed doors. Join me as my two oldest friends and I explore all things FinDom in Episode 5, Sergeant Steroids.   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Guests: Brittany Ryan & Jenny Jeske Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

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When host Amanda meets Dick—a seemingly charming Mormon man from Las Vegas who pursued her relentlessly on social media—she had no idea the chaos that was about to unfold. What began as a whirlwind romance quickly unraveled into something far more disturbing. Season One of The Dichotomy Diaries pulls back the curtain on the man behind the mask. What appears to be a devoted husband and religious man is, in truth, a compulsive liar entangled in financial domination, secret escorting for men, and a web of manipulation that left a trail of broken women. This season follows Amanda and six other unsuspecting women, all connected by the same predator, as they share their raw, unfiltered stories of betrayal, coercive control, and the strength it took to survive him. New victims of Dick continue to surface regularly. On average, The Dichotomy Diaries has helped at least one woman per month recognize the red flags, escape the manipulation, and avoid becoming the next chapter in this chilling story. But the story doesn’t stop there. Each subsequent season of The Dichotomy Diaries centers around a new brave individual who chose to speak their truth—shedding light on toxic relationships, the psychology of abuse, and what it really means to reclaim your voice. These aren’t just stories. They’re a warning, a mirror, and a testament to the power of truth. Because sometimes, real life is darker—and more unbelievable—than fiction.