Made a Decision – Episode 67
I’ve titled today’s episode Made a Decision. I am going to relate my the story of my journey to and through Step 3, “Made a decision to turn our will and our live over to the care of God as we understood God.” I started from unbelief, was told to “act as if”, found willingness, and eventually surrendered. But still, I must give my will over on a daily basis, because I continue to try to take it back. My Story What is this “God” thing of which you speak? How can I turn my will and my life over to something I don’t believe in? “Act as if” Letting go of my loved one’s recovery (or lack thereof) The meeting and the program as my HP A later understanding of surrender -- just going to meetings Unmanageability as motivation Evidence of God working in my life Growing willingness Surrender God suggests -- sometimes I listen Daily practice What holds me back? My intellect Fear (of losing control) Desire for my outcome What pushed me forward Clear unmanageability of life Seeing it work -- when I listened My will has often led me into trouble Change requires changing -- letting go of old ways -- I can’t do it alone